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Mami Maisonet
5960 S Land Park #222
Sacramento, CA 95822
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I wasn’t ready to leave this time around. Even with the water in the apartment having been turned off twice since we arrived (and the power being out days before we arrived) I wasn’t ready. Which is weird because I’m usually always ready to go home. This time being in Puerto Rico already felt like home. We went out to eat at places where I knew the owners. Mami and I went to brunch on Easter and ran into someone I knew. This time I went out of my way to deliver some of the things on Mami’s bucket list. Like, driving through Puerto Rico in a Jeep Wrangler, for some reason was high on her list. That actually proved helpful the day we got stuck driving in the middle of a fucking tropical rainstorm with near zero visibility and the highways started to form deep patches of water. The Wrangler drove through them unfazed. Maybe I haven’t been as tuned in to my anxiety, but I haven’t had any of the headaches I’ve been getting in the last month. This weird and consistent tension headache/sinus headache that shows up above my left eye. Please don’t try and internet diagnose me. I’d like to think I can attribute my success to luck (because BIPOCs need to find the right allies no matter how talented you are), being able to adhere to a strict schedule, being organized, saying what I mean and meaning what I say and following through on those promises. And I do it all without any mind altering substances! Come to find out, that shit is rare. It’s a lot of work and it’s exhausting. Maybe being in the land of mañana en la mañana can teach me something about how to slow the fuck down? I’m just not ready and even saying that is foreign to me. I stay ready.
Finding this route was just one of those times where you just say “fuck it” and take a chance.